Angel's Prayer
Living in an answered prayer is both fulfilling and challenging. No in-between.
When I was undergoing regular chemotherapy last year, my life came to a full stop. I felt isolated. Bored. As if I were simply drifting through the days—trying to fill the void of being unproductive because of circumstances beyond my control.
It's been a year now, guys! Wow. What a rollercoaster it has been! Akala ko hindi na ako babalik sa life ko before (I thought I could never return to the life I once had). Looking back, I realize how drained I was by the fear that I would never be able to do anything meaningful again.
So I prayed for God to fill that void, to make me useful again, to give me a purpose I could confidently claim as my own.
Today, I'm living in that answered prayer. The life I thought I had lost has slowly returned. I'm preparing to go back to school this month. My calendar is filling up again—events, plans, meet-ups. I'm spending more time with friends and loved ones, finding small ways to show gratitude to the people who carried me through, and learning to open myself up so my life can serve, even in little ways, as a testimony.
But answered prayers don't simply come to comfort you. Sometimes, they come to challenge your will. There are times when I'm overwhelmed by setbacks (ones I'm not ready to share yet). I admit there are moments when I wonder if I can live up to the very life I asked for.
Maybe the saying is true: God makes us wait because what we are praying for comes with responsibilities.
There are things I'm passionate about, things I want to pursue now that I've been given another chance. But I also know I shouldn't overexert myself. My health has to remain the priority. Healing is still part of my journey. So I'm taking it one day at a time.
And that, too, is an answered prayer.
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(I first saw Angel in a photo posted on the Adonai's Mercy House Facebook page—she was playing with younger cancer warriors, though she was already almost 18 at the time. She barely met AMH's age qualification, and personally I'm grateful she did. Angel has the heart and instinct of a writer, and eagerness like hers is rare. After she posted the piece below on her own Facebook page, I asked for permission to publish it in Adonai's Herald. Angel gladly agreed to share her thoughts with others. —Editor)
